I did say I wanted to make this site live again didn't I? I might not update very often though. Well here goes: I have finally decided that university life makes me stressed out just as much, if not more, than highschool life. Why? There are several reasons (I'm basing this on the assumption that only two people at most will view this, and thus, it will be composed of some rather personal stuff. haha. I'm not stopping the unfortunate one who is reading this btw...):
1. My course is BS Electronics and Communications Engineering. EEE. It was a hard path to take from the very beginning. Not that I didn't know what I was getting into. I didn't expect it to be like this though.
2. There are a lot of expectations. The state university is a place very difficult to get into. I actually ended up with a block full of achievers. Almost all of them were *somebody* when they were in high school. There were quite a few valedictorians, people with honors, and people who graduated from science high schools. What am I compared to them right? Haha.. my only consolation is that at least I passed the course along with them..
3. The subjects are difficult. Engineering Studies 1 is puzzling like woah.. I mean, I don't exactly know how this line will transform into this arc with a chord this long. It's so confusing. Not to mention depressing.
4. Being in the state university makes people look up to you. Being in the college of engineering makes them look up to you even more. Having all those people respecting you comes with a price: You have to live it. "I have to graduate on time." You have to be able to fulfill their expectations of you. Being in merely the second week of school, I can safely say, it isn't and it won't be easy.
It's kind of depressing really. I have to keep up with Math, and ES, and all that other junk. However, there's always hope. The past two weeks have been a mixture of depression and lots of fun. I'm wondering as to what could happen next. I mean, seriously, when I look back on this article five years from now, will I be graduating? Or would I have given up by then and shifted to the College of Arts and Letters? I sincerely hope it would be the former. A note to my future self: If you give up, you will regret it forever.
Haha. Silly of me, talking to my future self. I just wanted to assure myself that I wouldn't mess up, and suddenly shift to a less challenging course. After all, most people from my college do end up in CAL or CSSP. Hahaha. I don't want to. Of course, this isn't an insult to CAL or CSSP. Just saying that I want to stay where I am now. That's it for today. I just felt like writing stuff you see. Haha.
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